So, I have decided to quit smoking. This has nothing to do with any new years resolutions or anything like that. I don’t believe in those. I’ve made a resolution to not make any new years resolutions…at least I know I’ll stick to that one.
I’ve been dumb for far too long now. I have watched too many people close to me die from lung cancer. I brushed it off like I am invinceable. I’m not. I know better than that.
Trouble is, I enjoy smoking. I mean really enjoy it. I’ve been doing it for so long it gives me panic attacks to think of not doing it. Like my life will never be the same. How will I be able to function? I associate it with so many things.
Eating, drinking (coffee and alcoholic beverages), getting upset, being happy, feeling stressed, trying to relax, after dinner, after sex (which thankfully (or not) I’ve been kind of lacking that department anyways!), after lunch, on the way to work, in the car. It got to the point that I would have, let’s say a nail appointment. I would have a cig before I left my house to go then once I got there, light another one for a few drags because I was going to be in there for like two hours. You get the drift. It’s become a crutch, a part of me.
One that I know I should have never started or gotten rid of a long time ago.
I got bronchitis over the holidays. I had to go to the walk in clinic. Now, whether or not the doctor had actually looked at my chart before he started listening I don’t know. I didn’t have the balls to ask him. He started listening and said, oh a smoker. *cringe* what did that mean? Did it sound different than anyone else who had bronchitis? I don’t know, but all I know is that on my check out sheet, they kept circling quit smoking.
It’s tough. I’m not going to lie and I haven’t even gone a full day with no smoking. I had two yesterday and two the day before that. But I’m on my way. It’s a huge improvement from the pack a day that I was smoking before. And one day, before the end of this week, I will go a full day with no cigs. I haven’t blown up on anyone yet. I’ve just gotte a bit antsy, and annoyed. I’m avoiding going outside at work, because I associate that with having a smoke. I haven’t had anything to drink yet, because I’m on the antibiotics, I’m hoping that doesn’t trigger another whole set of cravings, but I’m sure it will.
So, any support, tips, tricks or anything of the sort would be greatly appreciated! I’m on my way. This time it’s about me.
Nobody likes a quitter, but it’s time I started being one!
{ 8 comments… read them below or add one }
Okay I’m sorry I am no help in the how to help department, but, I’m 100% in the support of it department!!!
It’s hard like quitting anything you love, but it good for you in the long run! You can do it!
Was the cheerleader enough for ya? Lol!
No seriously that is so cool…
lol! Thanks for the cheer! It’s very much appreciated!
You could start dipping snuff!
I never tried to quit dipping for the same reason as you, I frickin like it.
Good luck, I for one will be pullin for ya.
Ha! Not sure about the dippin’. Thanks for the encouragement though!
Good for you for quitting!! I have been wanting to quit for so long but I’m scared to fail. Keep us updated girlfriend, I’m rootin for ya!
You should try it! If you fail, just try again. No need to beat yourself up over it. I’m sure I will fail before I get it right, but I’m gonna keep on trying!
i’ll send good thoughts your way to help you quit. a good friend told me once that if you get rid of a habit that you should replace it with another one. maybe replace smoking with taking a walk; or going up and down a flight of stairs; take a class in something you’ve never done; chewing gum; listen to music; do the crossword puzzle; do a puzzle; go back to school. hope this helps. i’m behind you.
Good idea! Thanks for the good vibes!